"Why am I even here?'
"I don't belong."
"I deserve that."
"If I sit here long enough, I'll throw up."
"Just one more cut, then maybe I'll do it."
"Nobody wants me."
"I can't sleep, maybe I'll walk in the middle of the street tonight."
These are some of the things that I have told myself. I am not saying this for any kind of comments. I'm doing this because I so badly want you to know, you are not alone. Two months ago I thought about making myself throw up. Sometimes I still have these thoughts, but I know that my God has a better plan. And His plan does not include killing myself. His plan does not include self harming. His plan does not include an eating disorder.
Life is hard. Trust me, I know. I may not know what you have been through, but I know life is hard. I've been catcalled, I have been touched by a boy, I have been bullied, I got addicted to porn, I have been hurt. I am not saying that what you are going through right now is not hard, but I am saying that you are worth it and you can get through this.
I want you to know you are not alone. No matter how I look at social media, I still have bad days. But, I open up my Bible, and I listen to worsip music.
No matter how good the caption is on instagram, I promise you, there is nothing else that can heal you other than Christ. So, open a bible, pray, worship music, speak up, talk to someone.
Your life is worth it.
"Why am I even here?" - God has a reason for everyone.
"I don't belong." But, God says you do.
"I deserve that." Christ died for you so you can have joy.
"If I sit here long enough, I'll throw up." You are so beautiful.
"Just one more cut, then maybe I'll do it." This will do absolutely nothing for you.
"Nobody wants me." You are wanted by Jesus Christ.
"I can't sleep, maybe I'll walk in the middle of the street tonight." Pray, you will get through this.
You are so important to God. And maybe what we are going through isn't your plan, but God will turn it into something ret.
Please, stay here. Don't leave. You are so worth everything. You are beautiful.
There has been two susicides, that we know of in the past couple of weeks, but know this, you are not alone. If you are haing thoughts of hurtii ng yourself, please reasch out. Find some help. Please.
You are worth it.